Pictures from senior week and high school graduation were flashing by on my screensaver and it dawned on me that I am now a very different person than I was back then. Maybe the feeling is just in this moment when I’m trying to force-feed orgo into my brain after slacking the whole weekend, when I was only just telling my boyfriend how I did piano for three years in high school (I guess I was kind of an overachiever). Or maybe it’s also the fact that I saw a picture of me posing in the hallway of that school and thought how I could never picture myself being somewhere like that, in that moment, ever again. Yes, I will walk through other school hallways (I’m still in college after all) and yes, I will pose for countless more pictures (I like keeping track of memories)…but I just can’t see the person I am now sitting in those same classes and interacting with those same people the way I did back then. I guess it’s part of growing up but somehow in the back of my mind, I feel like I always thought I would never change. It makes me a little sad to think about it, actually.
But it’s not like I haven’t changed for the better. I’m just too busy now to do the same resume-boosting activities that I did once upon a time…though now that I think of it, I still have a good number of those. So it’s a part of growing up. I’m still the same old me, just…different. I guess we’ll see just have to see how this new chapter unfolds.
July 31, 2011 11:36pm